Monday, December 15, 2008

Vast quantities of suck4ge

On my last post in my alliance's forums I mentionned I was writing the post I had been dreading to write for about a week, and now I have to do basically the same post over here and I'm dreading it just as much. As my very first blog post opened, here goes nothing...

Those who know me out of game may know that I am the father of two young boys, Léandre and Timothée, respectively not quite 3 and not quite 2 years old. It is also pretty common knowledge that for just over a year now I've been separated from their mother, and believe me when I tell you it was for the best. But now the financial strain of alimony payments is starting to hit me like a gank-fit battlecruiser fleet on a fail-fit battleship. To those not into PvP, just know that said battleship lives about 3 seconds and you'll have a picture of just how bad things are. So when Real Life stuff like alimony, car payments, various utility bills, and this little thing known as FOOD is becoming harder and harder to pay for, some drastic measures must be taken, and paying 15$ USD a month for an MMO account is not a possibility anymore, let alone two accounts.

An so it is that on Christmas day at 0300 EVEtime (December 24th at 10PM Montreal time... what timing, eh?), Cozmik R5 and Demonia Gardens will have entered the cryogenic freezer for an undetermined period of time. There is just no way around it, unless someone wants to pay for me for an undetermined period of time, which is just not going to happen in this lifetime. I know that some people will say "Well, can't you buy PLEXes and GTCs with ISK?". Just know that I've been in the PvP business basically from the start, and although I have never been in financial trouble in-game thanks to much helpful advice rather than actual ISK donations, I have nowhere near the amount of ISK required to support even a single account in long term. So to but it bluntly in four words: sucks to be me.

So now I have about a week and a half of game time left so I'll do my best to get in on as much action as I can. The worst thing about leaving is that I'm doing so at a time when I'm getting more and more comfortable in the role of FC, and skillwise the ships I can fly are getting faster, better, and deadlier by the minute. I know that it's impossible to train a last skill as the accounts close but worse than that is the feeling of letting people down; as some have said before, Internet Spaceships is SERIOUS BUSINESS !!!

So what will I do during my time away from EVE, you ask? Here's a short list:

  • Flight simulation. I have this awesome Saitek X52 FCS that's begging to be used.

  • Race simulation. I AM SPEED! I need it like I need air to breathe, and crave it like a kid craves chocolate.

  • First-Person Shooters, namely the Quake collection. Thanks once again to Letrange I've been a Quaker since pretty much Day One, and intend to stay that way.

  • MechWarrior4: Mercenaries, with Mektek and NetBattleTech add-ons. Ph34r my triple Ultra AC20 equipped Dire Wolf of Doom, and my long-range Blood Asp of Light Mech Insta-Popping :)

  • Diablo, Hellgate, Elder Scrolls, and various other RPGs of the single-player kind.

  • Play as much drums as humanly possible.

Now, when will I get back to EVE? Frankly, I do not know. I do know that things should fix themselves financially because last week my ex found a job in her field of work, which is Quebec Sign Language if you want to know, and that means the alimony will get a much appreciated drop. But I still want to have my head raised above the financial waters before I get back to an MMO subscription because this is not something I want to have to do every year. One thing is sure, I am not exactly "quitting EVE". I will keep following what's happening in-game and will still read the various blogs and listen to the podcasts as they come out. My alliance even told me they'll keep a seat warm for me and I sincerely hope I won't keep them waiting too long.

So there you go. It's been a great pleasure writing here about my adventures and misadventures, and I may even post once in a while even if what I'll write about will be on subjects completely different from EVE. And then again maybe I'll post something about EVE! I hope I'll be back soon....

To the carebears: Fly safe, watch local, and dock up when reds show up !!!

To the PvPers: Fly with claws out and teeth bared !!!

To the Bozos: Holy Motherf***ing Sh*t I'm gonna miss you guys... le clown est triste... <:*(

This is Cozmik R5, signing off.



Ivanneth Maethor said...

*hugs* for the Space Jockey - hope things sorth themselves out soon, hon.

Benoit CozmikR5 Gauthier said...

Thank you Shae, it's much appreciated ;)

Carole Pivarnik said...

Things will get better, Coz...Eve will be there. Hang in there.

Anonymous said...

They will get better mate. BTW, check your contracts.

Merry Christmas!!!

Benoit CozmikR5 Gauthier said...

Holy Mother of GOD !!! Things did get better, and much faster than I could've expected in my wildest dreams. I also got a similar gift from a Bozo mate so right now Cozmik is saved from the cryo-freezer. Demonia will still go because I'll want to stretch my gifts as long as I can.

So I'm in the green until April 22nd or something.

Many thanks to everyone; you are the ones who make EVE the best game ever !!!


Anonymous said...

You are most welcome mate. We all need our creature comforts, especially when times get tough. It's what keeps us sane.

See you out there mate!!!

Anonymous said...

:) hey ro glad you'll be round the spacelanes a while yet! As with Shae I hope things work out in the long run for you and that you have as good a Christmas as possible!

Bahamut said...

Dude, I really mean this:


RL is often the most difficult game, mostly because you can't quit it. You should be proud you have the wisdom to walk away before things got really bad.

I'm truly sorry I didn't make it back down to fly with you, but I'm hopeful when you return to our glorious galaxy, I'll be there to watch your 6.

Take care of yourself. Very best wishes.

PS: If you're on Xbox Live, find me and we're frag some noobs.

Benoit CozmikR5 Gauthier said...

Psy, consider this an invitation to join Bozo :)

And no, I don't have an X-Box... I'm sort of allergic to game pads :))

Letrange said...

And that was quick!